I have always struggled with Philippians 1:21. Paul write this letter from prison, nearly a decade after his first visit to Philippi. He is, perhaps here more than anywhere else, aware that his life and ministry could soon be coming to an end. Like any human being, what is on Paul’s mind tends to reoccur in his writings. As he ponders the reality of his death, he addresses it three times in his letter to the Philippians, the first of which we encounter in the New Testament lesson for Sunday, which begins with that passage that has always puzzled me.
“To me,” Paul writes in 1:21, “living is Christ and dying is gain.” The second half of this sentence seems self-explanatory. Realizing that his date with his savior might be coming sooner rather than later, Paul takes comfort in his faith that life beyond this mortal body will be better than anything he has experienced on earth. Life in paradise, heaven, the bosom of Abraham, or however a first century Jew turned Apostle of Jesus might describe is was ultimately what Paul longed for. Not that he disliked the life he had. Not that he was eager to give up preaching the Gospel. Not that he was sad about the life he had lived. Rather, Paul knew, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that life in the fullness of God’s love would be beyond his wildest imagination.
Where I get caught short is this odd turn of phrase, “living is Christ.” What does that mean? Is there an idiomatic expression that I am missing? I went looking for other translations, to very little avail.
- For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. (NIV)
- You see, for me to live means the Messiah; to die means to make a profit. – N.T. Wright (Paul for Everyone, The Prison Letters, p. 90)
- For to me, living is for Christ, and dying is even better. (NLT)
The best rendering I could find comes from the CEV, which reads “If I live, it will be for Christ, and if I die, I will gain even more,” but it wasn’t until I opened my old standby The New Daily Study Bible by William Barclay that I found something that made it make sense. “If Christ were to be taken out of life, for Paul there would be nothing left.” (p. 32) I commend to you the entire paragraph on this phrase on page 32, but I won’t reprint it here for copyright concerns.
All this to say just a few things. First, sometimes, dealing with a first century sacred text is difficult. Taking the time to do a bit of research on what it is the original author was trying to say is never a waste of time. Second, when we do that digging on this passage, it reveals to us that for Paul, and presumably for all who follow Jesus, the life we live should be defined entirely on our relationship with Christ. Literally, “to live is Christ,” such that we know no other existence but that which has been made real in the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. Every moment brings another opportunity to choose life in Christ, and we won’t always be successful, but at its heart, following Jesus is handing our lives, our whole lives, over to him.